3/18/2016 0 Comments Revisiting UVWell, I'm back.
Back to where I'm from. My college sanctuary, my home - always and will be. It was a rare chance to be rubbing elbows again with the people I used to be with when I was in college. Though skeptic about my experience as a panelist for a project defend, with just the idea of being with my co-teachers again, I'd gave it a go. The day went really well. In the end, you always go back to the people that were there in the beginning. 3/17/2016 0 Comments To my favorite "What-if" I like the stars. It always remind me of you.
We see the same sky. The same stars. But I know, we see different things. It was never easy letting go of the idea of you. Of the idea of us. Of the potential of us. I must admit I had too much of the "expectations" and now I realized how I was too short of "actions" back then. It had been a while since I stopped thinking about what had happened, but then suddenly I can't help but ponder about it a little. Did you really gave up? Was I the one to gave up? Or did we just gave up? I must have been crazy for getting such a big deal out of it all. I think it just frustrates me, I mean of all the "what-ifs" in my mind right now. I can see you really happy with your life. You've just earned your degree and had the time of your life with the people you treasure the most. I can see you really happy with her. Honestly, it makes me glad to see you that happy. A little jealous, actually. You have things in your life in order and here I am struggling to keep myself up. Somehow, I envy you. You've become so happy, so stable. And here I am facing a million little issues about my life. I remember I used to solve them with you back then, a very long time ago. Now everything has changed, we have changed and our lives have changed. We had completely grew apart. Sh*t, re-reading our old convo got me like this. I miss you terribly. But you're really happy now, I know. I mean, I'd already accepted our fate, it's just that it still makes me sad sometimes. You’re now another story I can’t tell anymore. Did you ever miss me? |